a lot of people confuse a stroke with a heart attack....

Word of the day: Confused - unable to think clearly; bewildered

A lot of people confuse a stroke with a heart attack...

I find this to have multiple meanings.

So it's 6:09 A.M. and I'm up packing for Maasu and staying up late has just got me thinking alot about myself.  The word confused is what I am at this moment.  I don't know how I should feel or how I should act in a situation like this...I want to be more but I'm unsure..I'm confused.  I did something i really regret today...I should've never said anything :(..... I might've lost a good friend... I don't know how to deal with my situation.  I have feelings for her but then I feel like i shouldn't and so I'm trying to just keep it as that but then I get the urge to just let it out.... I'm getting tired....ZzzZzz if I sleep I will probably miss my exam at 11:30! I hope do well on the exam...I just hope it won't be different....:/ probably will.....

Thinking alone....

Thinking alone.... 

thinking alone only makes me miss not thinking alone...

Even though I know I don't have to think alone I still do... until I'm forced to think with others.

Does blogging always have to be emo?! Gosh... I miss what I had....:/

A friend said to me "wow your blog is all lyrics!"....I guess it's easier for me to express how I'm feeling through artist's lyrics.  And how coincidental I found a song for how I am feeling...

Departure time 7:30
I'm packed and ready to go
First class ticket outta here
I think its time to put it back in gear
No more standby
I'm tryna stay clear (uhh)

Turbulence got me nervous
I should've never flown
Scared when you fly alone again
You know the atmosphere wasn't perfect
I'm thinkin to myself "Was it worth it?"

Lay over its almost over
I can see clearly
No more stormy weather
Exit now
Don't pull on the lever lever
This gon be my final destination
No more sittin around havin my time wasted

You say its now or never
I pick never
We can be together
So calm down
No more red eyed late nights
No one-way, no more connected flights
When.....

Chorus:
When it started out that this relationship was unhealthy
You broke the code
Never thought that you would stoop so low (loww)
You got me flyin solo
Now you cryin talkin bout how you can't live without me (yeahh...)
My heart is sore
Should have never ever let me explore (ohh)
You got me flyin solo
Solo solo solo
Solo solo solo
Solo solo solo (you got me flyin)
You got me flyin solo
Solo solo solo
Solo solo solo
Solo solo solo (you got me flyin)
You got me flyin solo


Touchin down 11:30
I'm rushin through the doors
I'm in a good place now
I can't find my baggage
Now I don't even want it back
And I don't wanna have ya no more
I don't need a carry-on
It's gonna weigh me down
You didn't think I would find out
Whether or not he was wrong or right
I can't talk now
I gotta catch another flight

Lay over its almost over
I can see clearly
No more stormy weather
Exit now
Don't pull on the lever lever
This gon be my final destination (nation)
No more sittin around havin my time wasted (wasted)

You say its now or never
I pick never
We can be together
So calm down
No more red eyed late nights
No one-way, no more connected flights
When.....

*chorus

Thought I was scared to fly
Without you here
Now you can't get
Under my skin
Like you did before, why?
I was so reluctant to walk out on us
So now I'm taking back my life
Goodbye (yeah, yeah)

*chorus

It's a NEW DAY! OBAMAA

Make you just want to wake up early in the morning and enjoy the new day. :)

Disturbia!

Pre-Disturbia:

Me, Taneezy, Vic, and Johnny aka D.A.M aka Drowsy helping out our sisters of Phi Delta Alpha get ready for their 6th annual Halloween party Disturbia.  

Also Congratulation Tau Kappa Omega: Kappa Class for winning the costume contest

(image is poor, will upload better picture later) Oompa Loompas!

Official Music Video off NEW ALBUM! Video is ill!

Kanye West - Love Lockdown

Lyrics:

I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 
What I had to do, had to run from you 
I'm in love with you, but the vibe is wrong 
And that haunted me, all the way home 
So ya never know, never never know 
Never know enough, 'til it's over love 
'Til we lose control, system overload 
Screamin' no no no, no no 
I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 
See I wanna move, but can't escape from you 
So I keep it low, keep a secret code 
So everybody else don't have to know 


So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
You keep ya love locked down, you lose 


I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 
I can't keep my cool, so I keep it true 
I got somethin to lose, so I gotta move 
I can't keep myself, and still keep you too 
So I keep in mind, when I'm on my own 
Somewhere far from home, in the danger zone 
How many times did I take 'til I finally got through 
you lose, you lose 
I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to 
See I had to go, see I had to move 
No more wastin' time, you can't wait for life 
which is wastin' time, where's the finish line 


So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
You keep ya love locked down, you lose 


I'm not lovin you, the way I wanted to 
I met no one new, I got no one new 
I know I said I'm through, but got love for you 
But I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 
Gotta keep it goin', keep the lovin' goin' 
Keep it on a roll, only God knows 
If I be with you, baby I'm confused 
You choose, you choose 
I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 
Where I want to go, I don't need you 
I've been down this road, too many times before 
I'm not lovin' you, the way I wanted to 


So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose 
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
If you keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down 
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose

808s & Heartbreaks...

808s & Heartbreaks, Kanye's 4th Album!  Seems like it has a lot to do with heartbreaks (duh), yeah.  I'm feeling it!  For sure buy this when it comes out. (Not download)  This cd is good enough for a legitimate buy!

Leaked Songs from Album.

Kanye West - Heartless

Lyrics:

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so
Cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo
Just remember that you talking to me yo
You need to watch the way you talking to me yo
I mean after all the things that we been through
I mean after all the things we got into
and yo I know some things you things that you aint told me
Ayo I did some things but thats the old me
And now you wanna pay me back
You gon' show me
so you walk round like you don't me
You got them new friends
Well I got homeys
But at the end its still so lonely

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

How could you be so Dr. Evil
You bringing out a side of me that I dont know
I decided we might not speak so
Why we up til 3 a.m. on the phone?
Why would you be so mad at me for?
Homie I dont know shes hot and cold
I wont stop, wont mess my groove up
I already know how this things goes.
You run and tell your friends that ya leaving me
They say that they dont see what you see in me
You Wait a little while then you gon see
Youll never find nobody better than me! Tonight

In the night I hear them talk,
The coldest story ever told,
Somewhere far along this road
He lost his soul,
To a woman so heartless

Genius!